I feel like am idiot, all im good at is hurting people.....and breaking their hearts i swear i should just stop putting people through misery and stop dating. I am an idiot and have no idea what im doing.......Love stinks

What if you loved someone, but you just didnt feels you where completly theres or vis versa.....you felt like you had to share you position in someoneheart, but wish you didnt feel that way, wish you would just be ok with it....but your heart wouldnt let you, you dont feel as special...because you know love is shared between two, and you've agreed to deal with it, but it's just too much....because deep inside you feel unimportant, but you wanna hide that feelings for there sake.... -sigh- gah.....

sorry ive been off and on but it's hard for me to get on the internet now with my mom controlling the internet like some kind of warden, hence artwork isn't very progressive, I just wanted you to know im not slacking off (that much) but im pretty much online through the day it's at night when im not on as much

I’m either spending an entire month, or a good 2 weeks in South/North Carolina with my Grandparents and Aunt and Uncle.I pray to the rain gods that they have internet or I won’t be on Deviant art for like ALL my vacation time which Deviant art is how I wanna spend my break. I mean I don’t think I have a choice in the matter with going or not. And if there is not internet, ill just draw a lot, and I think I might go crazy too XD. uggggg I really wanna to Disneyworld , but nooo im stuck with old people for a month. But this WEEKEND I promise I will get busy with art….and other thing hehehehe
-pervy face- and you will see some brand new comics soon and Lunella’s story might be a comic aswell.

it’s so hard to feel good about yourself when your under the constant pressure of staying in shape and being what they say is “ pretty”….I was teased a lot for a long time for being ‘fat’ and I makes me so self conscious about myself…..I weigh about 171 pounds which the average weight is 145 for a woman right. And everyone who thinks I’m skinny, your wrong, I’m not huge, but I’m not skinny and I’m always worried that’s the reason and guy would turn his head away, and not view me as ‘sexy’ or ‘ pretty ‘to them. I always hear a lot of guys yapping about how they need a skinny girl or they like a girl in a 2 piece blab la, and I’m always worried that no guy will like me the way I am. In fact I hate seeing myself naked. I dunno I just think that no matter what big girls seem to finish last…..no I don’t have eating disorders, it’s hard for me loose weight, maybe low metabolism. And I don’t think im pretty at all…..blame it on being teased a lot I guess….yep you learned alittle about me *sighs*